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Hello Everyone,
I have not forgotten to write I have just been extremely busy. The second week I was getting used to being back in the office after the furlough. And this past week I was in the house sick. I already have asthma, but I had a huge flare up and went in for that just to be told I also have a sinus and ear infection. My asthma was so bad they sent me home with a nebulizer. That is the first time in all my years a doctor asked if I had one at home. SO yeah.
This week has been all about revelations and understanding. I started this journey out for my Prince Charming, and although it is still a motivational force behind why I am still doing it… today I realized that i needed to live for ME first and foremost. That has been my problem. I have always lost weight for a cause, lost it for a trip, or even lost it to impress. This time I want to get healthy so that I can live and do the things that I want to do.
So this morning I got up while it was still dark outside and got on the metro and headed down to the National Mall and met up with the DMV (DC, Maryland, Virginia) Black Girls Run group to run around the national monuments. I was so proud of myself. I jogged 0.5 miles, walked 0.5 miles, jogged 0.5 miles, walked 0.5 miles and then ran the last 1.49 miles in.
I was very proud of myself. I did it by myself. Everyone walked and ran at different paces but I was glad that I didn’t need to have my hand held and motivated to keep moving. I set visual goals along the path for me to run to and I achieved them. I learned that just because it is tough it doesn’t mean that it is unobtainable. Then I saw a meme on Instagram that said “I would quit, but the way my God is set up…”. Yes!!!!! That is my new mantra. I cannot quit this journey. I am so tired of quitting on myself. No more of that.
My good friend Ashley posted something about how you have to do something different in order to get different results. I have never exercised consistently, so that is going to be a challenge… but I am ready. Also, I have never gone long periods of time without eating meat…but I am working towards eating less to none, and when I do I will make healthier choices. I also have to stop saying that I no longer want to be fat, but instead say that I am ready to be healthy. Speaking in positive rather than negative. I also have to step outside of my comfort zone. it is okay to go run. I felt very empowered after it was all said and done.
I went and got a 3 egg omelet with just veggies and threw away this HUGE roll that they put in the carry out box. I don’t need that much carb intake today. I have been starting the day off with the Mean Green juice. So this morning I forgot to eat and ran without having eating any breakfast purely by accident. Hence, the omelet. But at least I had the juice and it seemed to push me through. I even noticed how the other runners were dressed and I went to Champs and bought some brand new running sneakers, then to Target to get some winter running clothing so that my attire would not serve as a reason as to why I didn’t get up and run outside one week.
I already know that I will not run with them on second Saturdays because I have a busy performance week that week. So if I can start out with making it First and Third Saturdays then I will be very proud of myself. If it moves up from there… cool. But I want to start with obtainable goals from my current level.
Okay, I know this is getting long so here are my stats:
Weight as of 30Oct13
Weight: 217.3
Body fat: 69.2lbs/ 31.9% (down 1.8lbs & 0.4%)
Bone mass: 8.4
Body water: 49.7 %
BMI: 33.3
Waist ( belly button): 41in (same)
Waist ( belly ouch): 42.5in (down 1in)
Okay, enough about my world. Need a long nap. I pray that this motivates someone to take baby steps and reach out and grab on to a healthier future. You see I am struggling so I am not a healthy person YET. So no, I am not a health nut who has never had a weight issue yelling at you to get in shape. I am just an average person who understands how hard the journey is, but I am ready to stop making excuses for myself. I deserve better. That’s all.
Until next time…